Tribute to Mazian. #loveishurt

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT

I still remember the day we first met at faculty computer lab, "Maizan isn't it?" "Mazian, kak.". Huwaaaarrgghh, like I'm gonna kill that innocent face for killing my innocent question. Hah, who knew, this young lady who were sitting besides me at the very first day I'm entering the college, who helped me with lots of stuff (and pretty talkative too), nah, end up being the one so clingy. (Or rather I'm the one attached to her.)

From gossiping at the back of Fortuner (with amaze eyes sebab first time masing-masing naik fortuner faculty *mukajakun*), to accompany me satisfying my crave for ayam penyet wong solo, to cry on each other shoulder during faculty family day (I swear no one ever know this secret so far), to the book fair as well, like seriously people will ask 'mana Ain' or 'mana Mazian' if we get caught alone without each other. Rhetorically, we're not that clingy, but once we met, you know the whole building will be ours like no one can resist our perangai mak jemah.

So, today is her birthday. What to do, always had adik-adik as my klik. From Lala to this one. Soon, once she got married, clearly I need to move on find another adik. Dah laa dia sorang je staf yang single dekat sini. There's no way I'm going to get crazy with mak-mak orang semua. (Unless if those mak-mak orang sharing the same mental disorder like me).

Eh, eh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR MAZIAN. May Allah bless you with rahmah and shower you with love. I obviously like you a lot for being able to stand my crazy head despite your image as a hafizah, gosh sayang, don't get so close with me hilang 30 juzuk awak nanti. (what a disaster I am right?)

Well, mental switching is not enough, I probably be the reason this innocent lady turn into a monster soon. What a guilty (pleasure) feeling. Suka betul bawak orang ke jalan kesesatan. Ampuuunnn!!!

p/s: And I'm recently influencing her to wear heals. (What? It's just heels)

Anyhow, this big monster sister will always take care of you. Will teach you how to deal with love, how to deal with men, how to deal with people, with life, with everything that I basically have been through. You are so young and pure and there's so much things I want to tell. But it's obviously going to take some times. Bear with me. Bear with life. It's stumble and hard. InsyaAllah, I'll show you the right one. Ambek yang baik-baik je ok. Yang jahat jangan ikut. Never. Ever!

Because you know Mazian, I'm just like you. I'm only human. I know how it feels to be hurt. How it feels to be pushed down, How it feels when it's like the whole world are against us. But I'm hold on to that 'being a woman doesn't mean we should be weak', 'being a lady, doesn't mean we can't be a leader' and 'be silent, doesn't mean we can't fight for our own'.

Sometimes, silent is better. 

(even you're standing for the right thing)

Why college family day always be the hardest part of my love story?

#cursed