Cendawan kukur from uwan

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT

Still remember entry abang dah kawen previously? Nah, right after the wedding things I went back to kampung for kenduri tahlil arwah uwan. Acu said, it's been 100 days uwan passed away so they call it 'kenduri menjemput' 'memanggil' or something like that I swear I don't know and I never heard about this. But all went well. Alhamdulillah. Sometime I still had this silent wish that uwan is still alive and be here with us. Like I really really miss her smell, her presence, miss her figure that just simply be there in the house. But well, it's just a wish.

So, the girls squad and me, basically had our busiest time during the day. 

I mean, these girls were. I was just enjoying the picture hah! 

Clearly they were enjoying the dish washing part too!

Wait! There's another excited thing I would love to share here. Have you guys ever heard cendawan kukur? I do. And I love that cendawan so much but it was so freaking expensive if you caught it at pasar tani or something like come on why such thing can be so expensive (well, I don't know how much it cost at pasar) but that was the day I found this yummy-looking-baby spread all over big rambutan branch nearby the khemah AND I was so excited AND picked all of them AND ask mom to cook I wish you can feel my excitement.

Here, here look at these beautiful babies!!!

But I forgot to capture them while they're still on the branch because you see I can't even think about any gadget at that moment everything was cendawan cendawan cendawan (and keep plucking) cendawan cendawan cendawan THIS-IS-MY-FIRST-TIME-EVER-PLUCKING-CENDAWAN-FROM-UWANS-BACKYARD-WHY-CANT-YOU-UNDERSTAND-ME-PEOPLE! Yea, even I forgot to snap the cooked one. But here's the picture of us, enjoying the cendawan kukur masak lemak cili api. Please goggle it for more info yea I know I can't put it on words here. I kenot!

All the happy tummies at home.

Oh ya, we managed to visit uwan as well. The grief look better. All the white tiny little stones there, in shape, nice and clean. I hope her soul is at the very best state as well. I talked to her. In silent of course. With my tears that I can't stop it from falling right after I recite Al-Fatihah. I told her everything. What I've been through since she was gone. That her son and her daughter in law somehow can't help me to understand life. It's not just about what we need in relationship, but what we build in that relationship. No one ever had a smooth sail to the journey of happiness anyway. At least, allow me to learn. Even in hardship. Uwan, I wish you can tell them all these. And ask them to let me pursue my happiness.

But I know, Allah's there for me. Sending me your blessing. 

Have a good rest uwan. I will forever missing you. Al-Fatihah.